There's also a purely artistic angle in that reaction. I had an idea that I wanted to express. I wanted to create something - and let's not pretend, we do it partially for personal satisfaction and partially for the serotonin boost of praise. Somebody though went ahead and expressed it better than I could, before I could even attempt a shot at it, getting all the praise. Why should I bother then? I would get compared to their work and get told mine's inferior, for all that work.
If I had a fair shot at topping theirs, or we could work from the same level with no disadvantage on my part, I could try and compete or "do just as well". But this way it's as if they've stolen my idea and made it theirs, before I could even do a thing about it.
Artistically, it's almost like seeing your ex lover being head over heels with the person they've left you for, while that person looks and carries themselves like your much hotter sibling. Similar looks, similar clothes, but they've really obviously put thousands of hours of work into their body, style and attitude, while you've had to deal with life and physical/mental health issues they apparently didn't have.
You can rationalize it, you can get over it, but it's still a kick in the teeth. Not only your ego, but the perception this being a cruel joke, an injustice of some sort. As if somebody was flaunting that in your face. The fact that the person is cool and nice and you're glad the lover is happy helps only so much. It's the same with the art - the top painter can be a nice person, but they got the mini "unfairly", way head of time, only due to their backstage connections with the model company.
It feels way better, for example, when you know they were painting a commission for a box cover - because that has to be done ahead of time and it's a fair business arrangement.
Edited by Reclusiarch Krieg, 11 April 2021 - 02:36 PM.